Harsh

I miss you boy, and you know it. Actions speak louder than words, and you crushed it. Behind my back, you did what you were not supposed to. I won't blame you for not being able to forget your past, but at least be truthful. You have problems, why can't you tell me. Oh yes, I forgot, I'm nobody to you. I thought I finally found the one, someone really special. You were the sweetest, the loveliest. One who made me completely got over my past. Thank you. You walked me out of his shadow, but brought me into yours. Now, again, I'm back to where I was before. Wish I could just run away, but I couldn't. I annoyed you? Fine, I won't bother you. You know I care, and I really do. I gave you another chance today, but you pushed me away with harsh and hurtful words. I know about your mom and sis, I know about aussie. I also know that there're more that is bothering you, but I no longer am one of the problems. So, why treating me like a stranger? All I want now is nothing more than friends, back to square one. Talk, laugh and play like how we used to. Out for drinks till morning, talking about your philosophies..^%^%.. We're grown ups, think a grown up teen like me can't handle it? or is it just you? I don't know. Wish I knew. Another scar in my heart, another tear shed. I don't hate you, I could not, just very disappointed with myself. Again, I fell for empty promises and words. I don't want to believe in love anymore. This is a full stop.