Stared at the blank wall, doing nothing at all. I was playing 'Better In time' by Leona Lewis, tears started rolling down my cheek. Browsing through the old e-mail chats, I felt it even more. The feelings sucked monkey balls. It is so unfair to me, I was told to wait ensured that things will be alright, but then.. Everyone's telling me the same thing, third party. I'm starting to think the same. I don't know. Starting to lose my mind, feeling awfully frustrated with the way I am now. I want things back to normal, like how it was before.